* check out the workout section
for an awesome workout I did a few days ago... took me 45:13 to
finish it :)
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Failure is my middle name.
Ever have those mornings where you
wake up thinking “today is a new day.. a new start” just to end
up messing up and then saying “tomorrow is a new day... a new
start”. Ugh! I feel like I have been stuck in this cycle for weeks, who am I kidding- MONTHS,
now. I keep trying to forgive myself but each and every day I am failing at the goals I am trying to accomplish. I am unsure of
how to work my way around (through??) this life lesson. I can not
figure out what it is yet.. but I want to learn the lesson and move
on. I don't like not being in control of things when it comes to my
eating/working out. I feel like I am losing control and can not get a
handle on it. Some how, some way this has got to change. I do not
have time to waste anymore on letting my ED run my life but I am not
sure how to stop it. I try.. I swear I do. Those who do not have an
ED will not understand- it is not about willpower. It is about an
addiction. One that you can not escape.. no matter what you do. Well,
I am done. I will figure out a way to beat this and when I do I am
going to commit to help others beat this too.
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Good luck. I had (still am struggle with) severe binge eating issues for years and it is so hard to change a behavior you have had for a long time. Take it day by day and keep working at it.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your kind words. I still struggle with it and am trying to focus on binge-free days instead of counting calories. You look wonderful lady!
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